i need to vent.... no, i actually need to rant!!!

My week has started off not as well as i expected. didn't get the job, freak that, didn't even get a chance for a second interview for the job that i wanted with Target. i'm really discouraged right now. it seems as if everything gets worse before it gets better. Graduation money is running out so when December rolls around i won't be able to make my insurance payments the way things are looking. I have another Americredit interview on Wenesday so i'm praying for that one. it pays way more and tuition reimbursment after year, that can put me through grad school. thinking about doing the overseas thing after summer of 08. i should do it, it would make me happier. we shall see what is instore for me.
On a lighter note, i'm at 176.5 pds now, that brings me at a total loss of 45.5 pds. weight loss seems to be the only thing that is going right in my life right now. maybe because it has been one of the major obstacles of my life!!!
I've been ranting too much!!

Despair!

Life, in general, is getting the best of me!!
Stuck at a dead end job.
A Degree is nothing but a piece of paper!!
Job searching since July has drained me.
Monster, HotJobs or CareerBuilder are no good in my eyes.

Self doubt!!

I'm doubting myself right now, or should i say that i'm doubting what God can do for me right now. I really don't know what to expect from life!!! I'm drained and i don't know why!!!

i don't fit in!

i don't fit in. i don't know where i fit in. at this point, i really could care less.
and it still seems to bother me that i don't fit in.
too sensitive!!

Prayers answered in unconvential means!!!

I believe that all the praying that I have been doing to obtain a better job has been answered. Lets cross our fingers. Eventhough the job is not as great as i want it to be, all that matters is that God answered my prayers!! It might not be the job that i wanted, but it is still a job that is going to pay me more than i am getting paid now. It is a job that provides benefits, a quarterly bonus and tuition reimbursement. I might be going to grad school sooner than expected because of that!! So i will continue you to scream that "GOD IS GOOD".