Frustration!!

I feel like my degree is worth nothing. I have applied for so many jobs and i am yet to hear from them. I tired. I don't know what to do. Money is running short. I just want to get a job that will pay me enough to survive until January when hopefully i will start teaching. I guess i always want everything to go my way but it can't happen like that all the time!!
I'm at work, doing nothing but feeling frustrated by the minute.
I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow, my hair will be really short for the first time in my life and i'm kind of excited!!

Same Shit, Different Day!!!

Even though i have lost 40 pounds since January, i still feel very ugly. Actually, I don't think i've ever felt this deep wave of ugliness ever. Everyday, i feel myself become lonely. Everyday starts of to be great but something happens and again i am attacked with a wave of emotions. i'm scared i'm going to end up by myself for the rest of my life.
What do i want from life??
I need to answer that question first, but most importantly i need to be happy.
I haven't been happy in a long time!!

Undergraduate life is over!! Real world here i come!!

As of August 11th, 2007, I'm officially a graduate from the University of Texas in Arlington with a B.A in History and a minor in Womens' Studies. 5 years and 1000's of dollars later, all I got when I walked across the stage was a piece of paper with University of Texas in Arlington on it. It didn't even have my name on the inside. I'm going to miss college, miss the parties, miss sorority life and I surely will miss some of the people I have met over the past few years. The time has come for me to move on to bigger and better things, to improve my life in anyway possible. I will be starting my certification classes soon so hopefully I can start teaching by January. It is a change I need to get used to. Anything that has occured in my life has occured in 7's. I was 7 when I moved from Abu Dhabi to Addis Ababa. 7 years later, I moved to Eritrea. 7 months after that, I moved to Houston. 7 years later, I have graduated from college.
I guess the question remains: 7 yrs from now, what event will occur in my life???
Hopefully, what every young lady dreams about, a beautiful wedding!! If not, I will settle for a Ph.d and a trip to Egypt!!!
Sounds exciting!!