Thoughts

Life is full of surprises.....tired of surprises at the moment......i need answers.....very little patience as usual.....i guess cause life is short......for my span of patience is even shorter........i can't stand confusion......in a crowd of people, i know where i belong......not there.....i belong somewhere far away from there......that's why i hate crowds........realize everyday that i care too much....live too little.....expect too much from people.......want to get away......stuck......problem is, i'm not too sure what i want......wants and needs.....have to figure those out......i want to go to Japan for year so i can get away but does that mean that i need to??....but what's holding me back?......Fear......change......i ponder.....will getting away for year help me in any way?.....realize that it well........but still in turmoil......so much in the air......don't have enough time to analyze it all.......so i confront some with a venegance......and others i just let them be.......start thinking of "Self-Reliance"....."To believe your own thought, to believe that what is true for you in your private heart is true for all men-that is genius."