Perception of Life changes with every year that ends, with every mission we embark on, we realize that our outlook on certain things change. I have grown into a completely different person. Mature yet childlike i believe. I still have a problem with acceptance. I want to be accepted by my family now more than ever. I don't even care about the outside world just my family. I am so different from everyone else, i feel that every time i turn around, i am being made fun off. I am still so very sensitive when it comes to my family , i can't help it though. I have forgotten how it feels to have faith and trust in somebody..... I'm way better than Abby..... but i'm getting there. Happiness has become a lost cause, a fleeting dream. Every morning i wake up to sirens in my ear telling me that i will amount to nothing. Should i believe that?? Should i believe that i will amount to nothing???
Weddings galore this summer and next year, I'm really not ready for the emotions!!!
Graduation around the corner warning me that i might be jobless come August!!!
I will officially go broke then.
I miss feeling wanted. I miss feeling appreciated.
I miss me. I have lost me somewhere in this world of many other me's and i can't seem to find me.
I can never figure it out.
Why is it that everyone has a boyfriend but me???
Sitting here daydreamin that love will eventually find me, the sad part is, i don't even know what love is anymore.
All hope is lost for this one.
Death is a way of life....My story is worth a verse.....Got this one from Mike-E when he did "Mezeker means to Rememeber" on Def Jam Poetry!!
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