Back to the Future

I shouldn't have left you, without a dope blog to step to...I let life consume me....and did nothing to improve myself....progression is the only way to succeed....and i definitely don't feel like I'm succeeding right now...I've been a lot of talk but no action.....Time to leave that all behind....and go back to the future....

SevenMinutesofHeavenwithFeven coming to a blog near you!!!!

When Fools Fall in Love

how beautiful love can be....when fools fall in love, they can't seem to see clearly....yet, how beautiful love can be...we all yearn for it even as we push it away....we all push it away since we are fools.... when fools fall in love, it is all a mystery....they lose themselves in love hoping to find themselves rejuvenated....when fools fall in love, love is as beautiful as it can be....

Beat....Beat.....

Your beat when you walk in.....holding still.....breathing in.....and you are right there....right in front of me....seducing me with words i have heard before from others....this time, it's different....can't tell you why....well, probably because you are the beat i was looking for....the indifference in you....the light at the end of the tunnel, they say......you are it....tired of saying swag...fuck that, it's confidence....never looked for you.....just found you.....i heard your beat....followed it....became all too real for me.....followed you 6 times now.....7 is my lucky number....and it rhymes with my name.....I'll stop following you at 7.....because at 7, your beat grows weaker.....and I'm on to the next one.....but your beat when you walk in.....holding still....breathing in....and you are not here anymore....

-Just listened to a banging ass beat a friend did....funny how inspiration comes from the weirdest places...not my best piece ever....but fuck it, i just wanted to write....

Let go

That moment when it all ends....you realize that it ended a long time ago....feels like you never knew each other.....the distance, inevitable.....

And you slowly learn to let go..

Its been a long time.....

Hello world.....how have you been?.....Sorry, I haven't visited in a while....but u know how life is....its hectic....the last 2 years have been tough...you have been there for me though....you never let me down...you allowed me to vent to you...cry while venting to you....you allowed me to smile.....smile while going over the many memories that we have together.....i'm back now....i didn't mean to disappear on u....I just wanted to let you know that I'm finding myself again....it's going to take some time but please let me make it up to you....I'm getting over some people and have a new job now....I needed the change in my life especially with the job situation....for right now, i'm going to ignore my personal life....I'm going to consume myself with the new job....and you....I need you more than ever now....Please don't turn your back on me.....please let your words flow through me like the River Nile....i can't keep blaming writer's block for my lack of attention to you....its just that....its like i fell out of love for a minute there.....i thought there was something better than you to make me happy, ease my heart.....but you are my 1 true love.....I know that now.....I know its been a long time but can you please give me another chance?

and it was all a dream.....

Who cares if we know each others last names.....all that matters is that we are both happy.....why put emphasis on names, people and appearances.....just me and you...we could make this world go round.....no need to call Tyrone....its just me and you....living in the lap of luxury....luxury of laughter, music and books....nothing better than being nerdy....days in with stars wars on the screen.....nights out with our favorite music riding around the city enjoyin the beautiful scenery that is us......
in the middle of it all, i wake up.....i was just napping on the couch.....
and it was all a dream.....

5 issues.

1) I'm falling apart....
2) I applied for a teaching program in Japan cause for some reason I can't get a job in the DFW.
3) Bought the GRE stuff....its been almost 3 years since i graduated college....its time for grad school if nothing else is going to happen in my life
4) My current job is ......uggghhhhhh.....
5) I need to escape....hopefully, Japan will be the answer!

And now i wonder if i'm doing too much......or too little!!!!!